I never blog unless I am inspired to do so and this morning I was.
I had forgotten that last night was the lunar eclipse in Aquarius. I knew it but when I couldn't edit one more minute I went and bought some groceries, (I was down to just protein shakes as no time to cook or even eat) and treated myself to the purchase of a movie. I bought Elizabeth: The Golden Age as I hadn't seen it and I have my own documentary I wish to produce on the theory that she had a Secret Wedding to Robert Dudley and that the Earl of Essex (she never got over ordering his execution) and Sir Francis Bacon (even greater numbers now believe he wrote Shakespeare's plays with all their codes and double meanings) were their children.
I was watching it just prior (I now know as of this morning) to the eclipse. The night before I had a dream of being in a relationship with a man who I saw clearly, which almost never happens, unless its like George Clooney. I knew when I awoke that it was Lolly Vegas of Redbone. I have been strangely and intensely attracted to him since I found the old "Come and Get Your Love" video on YouTube I hadn't really thought of it until last night that this feeling is the same intense attraction you get when you fall head over ass for someone as I have done many times ...to my detriment.
Just around when Elizabeth had Sir Walter Raleigh kiss her because till now they were showing that underlying layer regarding her choice to not marry so she could hold onto her power, I decided to stop the video and make some popcorn. After being so intently in the now and present with my doc for so many hours every day for weeks now I had let go of my focus and was just being entertained and chilling out and back into what we call our normal reality with normal routine. I screwed up..i set the microwave for longer than the 2 minutes! Instead of focusing on the popcorn like I usually do I went straight to my laptop and started looking up Lolly and totally immersing myself in that feeling again to see if I could figure out why I was getting so affected...at one point I realized I smelled burned popcorn but my mind said that couldn't be I only put it on for 2 min so it would under cook.
I finally went to check it and of course it had burned. I cleaned it up and went back to Elizabeth. At this point she is trying to get her astrologer to tell her that there is some uncertainty as to the outcome of the Spanish Armada Invasion. He finally says to her in every event there are different approaches, some run away, sum have the courage to stay etc and then there is one who spreads their wings and soars above to create their own destiny..something like that. She embraces this concept as her motivation puts on her armour and goes to war and we know now that was the shining moment of her reign and made her a Warrior Queen.
This morning I decided to have my tea while watching the making of part of the dvd which is always my favorite part. I also saw that the eclipse had happened last night exactly when I was burning the popcorn and being distracted by Lolly Vegas, so I googled the astrological meaning of the lunar eclipse in Aquarius and found this Blog that said two weeks ago the solar eclipse was in Leo and last night the lunar was in Aquarius its opposite. It states that "For the purposes of this eclipse, your Leo house tells a tale of old ego dramas that need to be swept away to promote healthier ways of ego expression. Your Aquarius shows where something new is occurring, where you reach to share your unique gifts and skills with others."
This was a huge AHA moment for me! As I finished reading this I looked up and saw the director of Elizabeth explaining how he was creating a visual on the screen to reveal not only what transpired during the Armada invasion but what was happening to her through it. I realized then that directors have always been doing that, finding a way to display their own theory on how an event was "created" through the eyes of the one who was involved. What I mean is that just like a director of a scene in a film we can engage the observer or take ourselves out of mind during the unfolding of an event and "see" that we are the director of our own scenes in our own lives. This is when we have an AHA moment. We see clearly what really just transpired and why Dr. Fred Alan Wolf says in my favorite quote of all time "the link becomes apparent".
The Karmic part of my natal astrological chart I am well aware of having worked with it for 30 years now. My North Node is in Aquarius and my South Node is in Leo. Simply put the main lessons I came here to learn are to shift my Leo "dramatic" energies of self to a new focus of utilizing my energy (skills and talents) to shift my focus for the evolution of mankind instead of satisfying my leo ego energies.
So this is how the link became apparent. Elizabeth is in an extremely powerful position but underneath she is always dealing with the responsibility of her power and her own egoic desires. I have had this past pattern of attraction to emotionally unavailable men (due I believe to my first love my father leaving when I was 7) which has always robbed me of my power as in those situations I just handed it over. Lolly was just an Internet example of unavailable I believe (plus he was pretty sexy ..for me anyway lol he's 70 now and I am approaching 56 but thats not how it is in my mind). During this Aquarius Lunar eclipse that completed the Leo solar eclipse I was totally caught up in the energy of what was going on in my environment everything was in sync with me and during the intensity of that short window of time I burned my popcorn. All these links did not become apparent until this morning but I am now focusing on releasing this old stuff once and for all. Now I have to stay on course and focused on my goals and not get distracted by old egoic temptations that would take me to another timeline with a different outcome that could burn me in the end. This was a great opportunity and I am so appreciative of Grandmother Pa'ris'ha and Dr. Wolf for introducing me to quantum physics and the understanding of how energy manifests into material form and how I can, as director of the scenes of my life adjust not only my neuron-net but the environment around me as I shoot my arrow over the wall!
