I have not blogged for a long time now as I made some extreme changes in my life. I had to in order to fulfil a goal and dream I have had for 8 years now. I got sick of listening to myself talk about doing it. This was my biggest frog (from Brian Tracy's book Eat That Frog) and it had huge challenges that I had never been able to get past, until now. I had been trying to get my documentary series "By Her Roots" sold to television and then raise the financing through co-productions. This is a very long and arduous process and now with the immursion of HD tv the cost of shooting it more than doubled. Then I came up with an idea of how to finance it and get it on the web instead and in one day I removed the biggest obstacles and had no more resistance and no more excuses.
I have never been one to give up but I had taken longer than necessary to achieve my goals as I struggled with past inhibiting patterns that kept me from pursuing my goals like an arrow over a wall. This past year tho thanks to the support of my Elder the Venerable Pa'Ris'Ha and the On Eagles Wings internet radio team, I have been studying exactly what I needed to in order to make a quantum jump into the reality that has always been waiting for me.
You may have read my other blogs here about the internal successes I have had because of my new understanding of quantum physics and how it explains how we shape our world. It just keeps unfolding as I awaken more and more to the individual power of each and everyone of us and apply it in my own experience.
I know now that nothing is created without first the resistance to the new reality, all our patterns and programs, fears and doubts, and the ever looming uncertainty principle of how to make it happen. And then there is this monumental moment when a decision is finally and steadfastly made, and like a shoot bursting through the surface of the earth a new life begins to shine and grow in the light of it's new world.
I have been making more and more of these decisions, and this one to move myself to Nova Scotia for one month and make my dream a reality or give it up forever I deployed so fast it wasn't until I was on the road that I realized I had actually done it. I still didn't quite have it all organized but this beautiful house came to me the day before I left and my friend Liz Harris, my accountant, real estate agent and financial backer split the rental and provided gas money to get me here all the day before I left Toronto. So I dug in and started working the first day and have averaged around 10 hours a day for 17 days now. I truly wish I had a crew as I have done every aspect of this video myself which means it doesn't have the quality it would if I had more financing to hire professionals but you have to start somewhere.
So I will have the first "webisode" finished and uploaded to my Youtube channel today hopefully, just waiting for the web ad my son Jonn Ryane created for Liz and its done. So now I can breathe and start on the other webisodes which will be a lot easier than the first one which is about the part of my childhood that inspired me to journey back in time through my own DNA.
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Thursday, June 26, 2008
Jesus the Quantum child
When Oprah commented to Eckhart Tolle "you really love Jesus don't you?" he started listing all the things he discovered in Jesus sayings that suddenly made more sense to him since he had studied and now believed that he was not separate from anything in the universe. The Universal One of Walter Russell's teachings, the concept on non-separateness from the Buddhist and Native American teachings and all the metaphysical and alchemical teachings down through the years that have focused on the fact that there is one form of energy that flows through everything is all coming together by many spiritual teachers of our time.
I have been studying Dr. Fred Alan Wolf's books (explained extremely well by Dr. Wolf himself in these two links) Mind into Matter and Matter into Feeling every Tuesday at 4:30 pm est on On Eagles Wings which explains how quantum physics is our world and how we make it. As I explained in my blog Bee Season - Kabbalah and Quantum Physics Dr. Wolf breaks down the chapters into some of the letters of the Hebrew Alphabet. That has been an amazing education for me, the quantum depth of meaning each letter has as opposed to the English alphabet and how our language has so many words with so little meaning.
After I heard Mr. Tolle recalling Jesus words in the scriptures, the story of him getting thrown out of the temple by the priests at 12 because he was trying to teach them came back to me. I had this thought that he must have been trying to teach them the quantum physics of the Kabbalah as Dr. Wolf is sharing now. It felt so right to me as I have been studying the gnostic gospels, dead sea scrolls and the apocrypha etc for at least 35 years now it so made sense.
Today I was searching for information on Herod's illigitmate daughters as I was told many years ago that I was one in a previous life. Apparantly I was walking naked in the streets cause I was so angry at having been forced to marry someone I didn't love and treated like a whore when I ran into Jesus who looked me in the eye and told me I was prostituting my soul when I prostituted my body. I joined the group after that and stayed with the womens circle writing some of the stories that are now attributed to men.
Now I am not stating this is a truth or my truth or that I even had past lives. I have since learned so much about parallel worlds/lives and that the soul can split so you might be recalling another's experiences that it is all just an open space of quantum possibilities on my time loop. Regardless here I was (because of a doc on tv that inspired me in this direction) searching through the Herod stories and came across a few places that go into more depth regarding the rumour I had heard many times of who Jesus parents really were. I won't get into that right now but following that stream I found this. I got so excited when I read this because it was just as I saw it in my mind when I thought about Jesus teaching the Kabbalah as it came to the alphabet.
This is an excerpt from a book by Walker, Benjamin 1983 Gnosticism: Its History and Influence on the Genesis of Eden Website
The gospels record only a single major instance from the childhood of Jesus, telling how, when he was twelve years old he went to the temple and discoursed with the doctors, and 'all that heard him were astonished at his understanding and answers' (Luke 2:47). But the apocryphal gospels of the infancy give numerous other stories of his supernatural power. Thus, he fashioned twelve sparrows out of 'Soft clay, clapped his hands and they flew off. Again, he dipped several sheets of cloth into a vat of black dye, and when the dyer complained to Mary, Jesus took them out one by one, each dyed in a different colour as the dyer asked. Another story relates that when he was being taught the alphabet, his teacher Zacchaeus said to him, as was the custom, 'Say al ha' (or in Hebrew, alef, the first letter of the alphabet), and Jesus said, 'Alpha'. When the teacher said, 'Say beta' (Hebrew, betb, the second letter), the child answered, 'First tell me what alef is and then I will tell you what beth is'. The child then proceeded to explain to Zacchaeus the construction and significance of alef.the diverging lines showing the relationship of what is above and what is below; the long middle stroke resembling the body of a man; the short descending stroke like an arm pointing down; the raising on high of the third stroke, like an arm uplifted; the dancing form as the lines come together; and the tension and balance of the whole composition that makes up the letter alef. And when Zacchaeus heard the allegories of the first letter spoken by the child he cried out in perplexity, shame and rage, Woe is me, wretch that I am. I have brought disgrace to myself by agreeing to teach this young man. Take him away. He has confounded my senses. I cannot follow his meaning. I have been humiliated in my old age by a child. I am ready to faint and die in my disgrace. I cannot endure this hour for I have been brought to nought by a stripling.'
I have been studying Dr. Fred Alan Wolf's books (explained extremely well by Dr. Wolf himself in these two links) Mind into Matter and Matter into Feeling every Tuesday at 4:30 pm est on On Eagles Wings which explains how quantum physics is our world and how we make it. As I explained in my blog Bee Season - Kabbalah and Quantum Physics Dr. Wolf breaks down the chapters into some of the letters of the Hebrew Alphabet. That has been an amazing education for me, the quantum depth of meaning each letter has as opposed to the English alphabet and how our language has so many words with so little meaning.
After I heard Mr. Tolle recalling Jesus words in the scriptures, the story of him getting thrown out of the temple by the priests at 12 because he was trying to teach them came back to me. I had this thought that he must have been trying to teach them the quantum physics of the Kabbalah as Dr. Wolf is sharing now. It felt so right to me as I have been studying the gnostic gospels, dead sea scrolls and the apocrypha etc for at least 35 years now it so made sense.
Today I was searching for information on Herod's illigitmate daughters as I was told many years ago that I was one in a previous life. Apparantly I was walking naked in the streets cause I was so angry at having been forced to marry someone I didn't love and treated like a whore when I ran into Jesus who looked me in the eye and told me I was prostituting my soul when I prostituted my body. I joined the group after that and stayed with the womens circle writing some of the stories that are now attributed to men.
Now I am not stating this is a truth or my truth or that I even had past lives. I have since learned so much about parallel worlds/lives and that the soul can split so you might be recalling another's experiences that it is all just an open space of quantum possibilities on my time loop. Regardless here I was (because of a doc on tv that inspired me in this direction) searching through the Herod stories and came across a few places that go into more depth regarding the rumour I had heard many times of who Jesus parents really were. I won't get into that right now but following that stream I found this. I got so excited when I read this because it was just as I saw it in my mind when I thought about Jesus teaching the Kabbalah as it came to the alphabet.
This is an excerpt from a book by Walker, Benjamin 1983 Gnosticism: Its History and Influence on the Genesis of Eden Website
The gospels record only a single major instance from the childhood of Jesus, telling how, when he was twelve years old he went to the temple and discoursed with the doctors, and 'all that heard him were astonished at his understanding and answers' (Luke 2:47). But the apocryphal gospels of the infancy give numerous other stories of his supernatural power. Thus, he fashioned twelve sparrows out of 'Soft clay, clapped his hands and they flew off. Again, he dipped several sheets of cloth into a vat of black dye, and when the dyer complained to Mary, Jesus took them out one by one, each dyed in a different colour as the dyer asked. Another story relates that when he was being taught the alphabet, his teacher Zacchaeus said to him, as was the custom, 'Say al ha' (or in Hebrew, alef, the first letter of the alphabet), and Jesus said, 'Alpha'. When the teacher said, 'Say beta' (Hebrew, betb, the second letter), the child answered, 'First tell me what alef is and then I will tell you what beth is'. The child then proceeded to explain to Zacchaeus the construction and significance of alef.the diverging lines showing the relationship of what is above and what is below; the long middle stroke resembling the body of a man; the short descending stroke like an arm pointing down; the raising on high of the third stroke, like an arm uplifted; the dancing form as the lines come together; and the tension and balance of the whole composition that makes up the letter alef. And when Zacchaeus heard the allegories of the first letter spoken by the child he cried out in perplexity, shame and rage, Woe is me, wretch that I am. I have brought disgrace to myself by agreeing to teach this young man. Take him away. He has confounded my senses. I cannot follow his meaning. I have been humiliated in my old age by a child. I am ready to faint and die in my disgrace. I cannot endure this hour for I have been brought to nought by a stripling.'
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