Eating my Biggest Quantum Frog!

I have not blogged for a long time now as I made some extreme changes in my life. I had to in order to fulfil a goal and dream I have had for 8 years now. I got sick of listening to myself talk about doing it. This was my biggest frog (from Brian Tracy's book Eat That Frog) and it had huge challenges that I had never been able to get past, until now. I had been trying to get my documentary series "By Her Roots" sold to television and then raise the financing through co-productions. This is a very long and arduous process and now with the immursion of HD tv the cost of shooting it more than doubled. Then I came up with an idea of how to finance it and get it on the web instead and in one day I removed the biggest obstacles and had no more resistance and no more excuses.

I have never been one to give up but I had taken longer than necessary to achieve my goals as I struggled with past inhibiting patterns that kept me from pursuing my goals like an arrow over a wall. This past year tho thanks to the support of my Elder the Venerable Pa'Ris'Ha and the On Eagles Wings internet radio team, I have been studying exactly what I needed to in order to make a quantum jump into the reality that has always been waiting for me.

You may have read my other blogs here about the internal successes I have had because of my new understanding of quantum physics and how it explains how we shape our world. It just keeps unfolding as I awaken more and more to the individual power of each and everyone of us and apply it in my own experience.

I know now that nothing is created without first the resistance to the new reality, all our patterns and programs, fears and doubts, and the ever looming uncertainty principle of how to make it happen. And then there is this monumental moment when a decision is finally and steadfastly made, and like a shoot bursting through the surface of the earth a new life begins to shine and grow in the light of it's new world.

I have been making more and more of these decisions, and this one to move myself to Nova Scotia for one month and make my dream a reality or give it up forever I deployed so fast it wasn't until I was on the road that I realized I had actually done it. I still didn't quite have it all organized but this beautiful house came to me the day before I left and my friend Liz Harris, my accountant, real estate agent and financial backer split the rental and provided gas money to get me here all the day before I left Toronto. So I dug in and started working the first day and have averaged around 10 hours a day for 17 days now. I truly wish I had a crew as I have done every aspect of this video myself which means it doesn't have the quality it would if I had more financing to hire professionals but you have to start somewhere.

So I will have the first "webisode" finished and uploaded to my Youtube channel today hopefully, just waiting for the web ad my son Jonn Ryane created for Liz and its done. So now I can breathe and start on the other webisodes which will be a lot easier than the first one which is about the part of my childhood that inspired me to journey back in time through my own DNA.

The 80's in Calgary

I loved my little hippie life in Calgary. I was married to my late ex-husband Ken Cooper of Brimstone Productions, and had my little rock and roll baby Jonn (Woody) who was conceived at the end of the Bat out of Hell tour and born during Dr. Hook. We separated when Jonn was 1 1/2 and I became a single mom as Ken was always on tour. I wrote columns for three local community papers and was a volunteer with Rogers Cable for 4 years. During that time I went to S.A.I.T.'s CTSR course and before I graduated as a TV Writer/Producer I was in the Control room at CBC as script assistant for the 11pm final. I arrived in Calgary from White Rock BC, having followed Ken there, when the boom was on..and left when it was over. I then followed the other famous Calgarians to Toronto where they all did extremely well. I had a lot of ups and downs creating businesses and careers while raising a son by myself..but he turned out pretty cool..a lot like his dad actually, still a hippie kid.

Anyway I had wonderful people and friends to work with in Calgary and found some of them on facebook and myspace. I just went through the old VHS they made for me at Rogers when I left to use as a resume tape but there was not a lot of audio on it. I threw this short video of clips together, didn't want to bore anyone but I just didn't want to lose it. This is where I fell in love with video. My first day as a volunteer host was when I had to interview Wayne, Ken, Alan Steve and Lanny..was a blast! Humble Howard agreed to do this ending for me and I had to stick it on here..here it is