Eating my Biggest Quantum Frog!

I have not blogged for a long time now as I made some extreme changes in my life. I had to in order to fulfil a goal and dream I have had for 8 years now. I got sick of listening to myself talk about doing it. This was my biggest frog (from Brian Tracy's book Eat That Frog) and it had huge challenges that I had never been able to get past, until now. I had been trying to get my documentary series "By Her Roots" sold to television and then raise the financing through co-productions. This is a very long and arduous process and now with the immursion of HD tv the cost of shooting it more than doubled. Then I came up with an idea of how to finance it and get it on the web instead and in one day I removed the biggest obstacles and had no more resistance and no more excuses.

I have never been one to give up but I had taken longer than necessary to achieve my goals as I struggled with past inhibiting patterns that kept me from pursuing my goals like an arrow over a wall. This past year tho thanks to the support of my Elder the Venerable Pa'Ris'Ha and the On Eagles Wings internet radio team, I have been studying exactly what I needed to in order to make a quantum jump into the reality that has always been waiting for me.

You may have read my other blogs here about the internal successes I have had because of my new understanding of quantum physics and how it explains how we shape our world. It just keeps unfolding as I awaken more and more to the individual power of each and everyone of us and apply it in my own experience.

I know now that nothing is created without first the resistance to the new reality, all our patterns and programs, fears and doubts, and the ever looming uncertainty principle of how to make it happen. And then there is this monumental moment when a decision is finally and steadfastly made, and like a shoot bursting through the surface of the earth a new life begins to shine and grow in the light of it's new world.

I have been making more and more of these decisions, and this one to move myself to Nova Scotia for one month and make my dream a reality or give it up forever I deployed so fast it wasn't until I was on the road that I realized I had actually done it. I still didn't quite have it all organized but this beautiful house came to me the day before I left and my friend Liz Harris, my accountant, real estate agent and financial backer split the rental and provided gas money to get me here all the day before I left Toronto. So I dug in and started working the first day and have averaged around 10 hours a day for 17 days now. I truly wish I had a crew as I have done every aspect of this video myself which means it doesn't have the quality it would if I had more financing to hire professionals but you have to start somewhere.

So I will have the first "webisode" finished and uploaded to my Youtube channel today hopefully, just waiting for the web ad my son Jonn Ryane created for Liz and its done. So now I can breathe and start on the other webisodes which will be a lot easier than the first one which is about the part of my childhood that inspired me to journey back in time through my own DNA.

Journeyman, Vegas, yellow tail, corn chips and quantum physics

My favorite network series is Journeyman (click on title for the link). It is a quantum physics storyline (think new version of Quantum Leap) with romantic and profound layers and I love every single one. I love Heroes, Lost and Life and thats about it for network televison for me (except of course for the young and the restless who i admit shamelessly has had me hooked since grade school i think).

I have been in Vegas now for ...I don't even know how many days now..and the only places I have been outside of my rv....is some houses in the real estate market, the rv repair shop, the wal-mart across the street and the beautiful waterfall show at the little casino here that my "born-again Christian" rv neighbor took me to on his dinner comp...I am not even going to go into that one except to say he really assisted me in "engaging the actress" in me who has so much confidence in her own beliefs and the voice within who kept asking me "what would Grandmother do"..I took on the challenge instead of wishing it would go away.

I Have expressed the desire to one day become a "mini me Elder" and shying away from someone who aggressively tries to convert someone to their side would not be what my Elder would do. So because I am still working on clearing my "engrams" (Scientology) or re-wiring my old neuro-nets or past negative patterns (What The Bleep http://www.whatthebleep.com/ , Dr. Joe Dispensa http://www.drjoedispenza.com/), and the actual scientific explanation of how we create every single thing in our lives by Dr. Fred Allen Wolf's books Mind into Matter and Matter into Feeling http://www.fredalanwolf.com/ and my new ongoing study "Acting for Real http://wealthvibes.blogspot.com/2007/10/acting-for-real.html
I stood firm ..and continued my medicine.. I prayed over every plate of food from the buffet even though he could not belive I would thank the food for its giveaway and confirm that I would transform the energy and put it to good use, or that Mary Magdelene was not a whore. and I made these comments with gentleness and convicition and was surprised by the obvious "taken aback" stance..so I saw how to stand in the light and not be afraid ....

Anyway of course I get my favorite Yellow Tail wine here for like $4.79 !!! in Canada its $11.99... soooo unfair.. but it does help me blog!!!