I had downloaded the Eckhart Tolle interviews with Oprah from I tunes so I forced myself to just sit listening to the interviews and focusing on the NOW.. a gift I gave myself..for two whole days. I had rented this little one room cabin on the lake last year when I had money from the sale of my house. I was able to close it up for winter, buy The Empress on credit an
d embarked on a journey by myself to Arizona. I returned in the spring to my little piece of paradise and began to focus on creating income, as I had long since run out of money and I had this annoying feeling I was running out of time.I did it ...some video production, taught ballroom, ladies 70's disco queen fitness class, wedding couples First Dance, three bookkeeping clients, also worked out to lose what I gained on the trip (cause I am almost 56 now and have to work always on increasing my metabolism), sent out my documentary proposals to get co-producers and financing, re-packaged the promo videos I did for my friends and uploaded to my YouTube Channel, Myspace and Facebook pages, visualized the end result of my goals, caught every negative pattern and neuron-net I could and transformed it all in two months and then...I looked in the mirror I was on fire. My mind was very very busy all the time...as I went to sleep, during my dreams, and as I woke up and created my day. Here's Dr. Joe again telling how he Creates His Day.
All this was positive/forward focusing on the outcome kind of thinking ..it was just too much thinking. I had to slow down fast and get into the Now zone or I was headed for burnout again.
My Elder Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha had us study and listen to Dr. Joe Dispenza's interviews on Beyond The Ordinary on the brain, watched the Secret and What The Bleep many times over, and have been part of a study group called The Writer's Academy who have a weekly webcast Tuesdays on On Eagles Wings internet radio hosted by Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha. The two books we have been intently discussing are Dr. Fred Allen Wolf's Mind into Matter and Matter into Feeling on Quantum Physics or The New Alchemy. We are just finishing up the 2nd book. Here is Grandmother's interview with Dr. Fred Alan Wolf discussing Shamanism, the Qabala and how he was the inspiration behind the name On Eagles Wings.
I started my inner journey in Toronto when I was around 15 in high school. A friend introduced me to Edgar Cayce. I was raised a Catholic but this led me to The Dead Sea Scrolls, The Nag Hammadi Library, The gnostic gospels and the most fascinating of all the "Lost" Gospels of the Apocrypha. When I ran away from Toronto to White Rock B.C. I took off my false nails and eylashes, and my disco queen clothes and became a hippie. I dove into astrology and numerology. After moving to Calgary I took every self awareness course I could and studied my own past lives and regression with William David (Elias de Mohan).
Then I left Calgary packed up an old station wagon, my 8 year old son and everything we owned and came back to Toronto. This is an interesting picture for me as I hadn't looked at it for a long time. My son and I are saying goodbye to my ex-husband (his father), the guy I was dating and the guy I was in love with but was never in love with me...hmmmA few weeks later I knew why. I had joined a mailing list looking for some spiritually like minded people and received a flyer for a workshop by Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha, she was opening up the teachings of her ancestors and her Grandmother of the T'saligi (Eastern Cherokee) traditions and old ways. As I held that flier in one hand and the phone in the other I new I had found my life's purpose although for another 20 years ..as she says ..I only had a toe in.
I went on hundreds of self development trainings with her including remote viewing, shield making, vision quests, medicine wheels, firewalking (so many I lost count), fasts, purifications, and intensives to some sacred places of Ela with the absolute best tour guide ever! Grandmother had us read The Holographic Universe and many books on Quantum Physics years ago to help us understand Shamanism or what the Ancients practiced as "Medicine". Still I would go back home and back into my mind, mass mind and my destructive patterns from my past. It has taken me all these years until, to Grandmother's extreme delight, all these things entered main stream society and what we were doing was now becoming commonplace to anyone who was, as Eckhart and Oprah call "Awakening".
Grandmother had been so supportive of my solo "roadtrip" across the U.S. She said I was crossing old barriers that I will never return to. Then I heard Eckhart tell Oprah that a journey (or vacation) that is not scripted or planned, brings into your life uncertainty where you have to think, survive and grow with every decision. Now I understand why my trip had such an affect on me. This is also what is known in Quantum Physics as "the uncertainty principle". I'm getting it...yea!
NOTE: I am compiling my notes on Quantum terminology for a future blog to demonstrate what I have learned as to how quantum physics/mechanics translates into the creation of our own matrix/reality.
Near the end of the episodes with Eckhart he starts talking about the return movement or our own old age, and the movement toward the light and our natural form, our spirit without the body. He talked about other cultures like the Native Americans appreciating and honoring old age as a knowing that you are on your return home. He started talking about how in ancient cultures old age is respected and the title of Grandmother is the embodiment of not only wisdom but as an Elder who carries the opening of the spirit for all to walk through. This is where this blog started to take shape as everything and everyone I have ever studied or studied with has always been there through this beautiful window called Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha and everything started to blend and harmonize. And now instead of fierce focus on the outside of me using my brain, I was truly using what's inside to create and not just thinking or focusing on it. It feels different.
At the end of the second day of being "still" ( a miracle according to my friends and family) I took a break and watched a documentary Stonehenge Decoded on the new discoveries at Stonehenge and Woodhenge and the revealing of the connection between them and the meaning behind their ancient solstice ceremonies. As I watched the reenactments of the people walking and carrying their dead along the river Avon from Stonehenge and the Eastern sunrise to the Woodhenge and the western sunset, I recalled how Grandmother has us greet the sun with our heads covered and as the sun reveals herself we reveal the tops of our heads as if born again in a new life and a new day. The archaeologists at Stonehenge have discovered that the ancient ceremonies were about honoring their ancestors and the ones that came before them. I have been setting out an offering of my meals to the ancestors (as is a tradition in most ancient cultures) before I eat Since Grandmother taught me to 20 years ago. This is just one of the many spiritual practices that she has taught us to include in our day so we are connected to the All That Is. Grandmother is currently on tour in Australia sponsored by the CFHD there, but is sometimes still able to be on the calls/program. In the meantime we are reviewing (can't do that enough) the book.
This must be the longest blog ever..but I felt I had to encompass 40 years of a journey to my own "Awakening". I have known about living in the "Now" and have a little card with the ancient language writing of the word NOW Grandmother gave us many many years ago. But it has taken me a long time to be able to allow it into my being. It really happened when I discovered that being in "The Now" is actually "Engaging the Observer" (Quantum Physics) so now I am able to continue pursuing my goals, while reprogramming my neuron-nets and be calm and still allowing the Observer or who we all really are to control my life..not my brain. This is very exciting!
I have been honored by request to become a director for On Eagles Wings and I feel as happy about it as Oprah does about her webcasts. We have been working with this format for many years now even back when we had it as a regular radio show in Cleveland and Toronto. We have just been infused with new technical, emotional and financial support, are updating and changing the site and are moving On Eagles Wings to video podcasting and skype casting and it is all very exciting. You can still listen into the Writer's Academy book review calls (finishing up Matter Into Feeling) live Tuesdays at 4:30 pm EST and the archived shows for the last year will be available soon.
If you are interested in producing your own weekly 1 hour webcast, I am getting ready to create my own show, please contact info@on-eagles-wings.net The price is $100 U.S. per week or $300 per month and you can sell your own advertising to cover the costs or contact us for alternative packages.
Wado (Cherokee for I come in thanksgiving) for sharing this time with me. And I hope this helps in sorting through all the different sources as you make your way through your own "Awakening".
